So why am I doing this if I am not great at it? Simple, I am great at it. How many people get up before the sun and log miles. Who pushes their bodies directly after the night's slumber through grueling, sweaty workouts before an 8 hour work day? Most pros train without having to work an 8 hour day. Running is their job. I am training and working. I just keep in mind, "If you aren't choosing the tougher situation, you aren't giving yourself the opportunity to grow." Obviously, you can't go hard every day, but; you also cannot run the same flat loop either. Some days my morning 75 min run logs great mileage and others it looks like a bad 15k. It is worth it when one day you wonder, "Why did I think this was hard?"
A great runner is a runner who is still improving given their circumstances, who is taking risks and challenging themselves daily, the ones who aren't giving up or giving in. I am more than likely bombing my first ultra. I can feel my body breaking down a little and I feel my legs turning to lead from all the training. With that being said I can also say that I am the strongest and fittest I have been to date. I know that something good will happen and I am not giving up until I get there. I just might surprise myself!